So this Easter will be the first away from my friends, and my first unemployed! I can already tell from facebook that my mates have been on the lash and yes ... I am jealous! So i decided to have a pamper day instead. Only that didn't go very well when I flooded the bathroom!! but it's been OK ... nothing compared to getting pissed though.
So, we're supposed to be going home to visit friends and family soon ... I'm having a night with the girls - god knows where we'll end up or what we'll do ... but I'm really worried bout bumping into K. Last time I was home I got really drunk and chat some shit which ended with me tellin him to text me ... which he never did. Don't really wana bump into him but have the feeling I will. Would be nice to see him, as always, but I know I'll walk away with a messed up head like last time ... and although last time it took me two-three months to get over it, whilst being on anti depressants, I did it, just wouldn't like to go through it again. You know when you know you're supposed to be with someone and the only person that doesn't know is that person! He gets on my nerves sometimes ... but us females are gluttons for punishment!
So been listening to some classic Prince and Jacko today - might try my hand at a bit of Lips on XBox!
Also today, I discovered "The Hills". Really liked it! It was a liitle girly by my standards but I loved it - I kinda get what they going through, cuz my life's been like that at times ... check me out talking bout it likes it real! ha! So I'm guna look out for more on MTV.
Also ... In case you're wondering - Barney lost his match against James Wade. Only 4 games to go now till the cutoff and Barney needs to pull his socks up or he'll face the chop ... NOOOO!
Friday, 10 April 2009
Wednesday, 8 April 2009
Run up to getting here
Well, We've been in South Shields now since the end of Jan 09. Really looking to start a fresh life up here, and ultimately save some money! It's hard being so far away from friends and decided I shall start blogging when I need to let off some steam! At the Moment A and I are living with his parents - which has been challenging to say the least! Things like washing my underwear never became so controversial til i got here! plus there's personal space issues and so on, I'm an only child so personal space is a big thing for me! Luckily the house is rather big, and the area is lush so can go out when I want and escape.
Leaving my friends behind was quite hard cuz I do love em to bits, but I found that I am a completely different person when I am with them. I go back to being a wild child and "don't have a fuck" attitude. When I'm in Sth Sds I'm not like that at all, split personality is something I find hard to deal with! But I couldn't say I'm one over the other...MAN!
Problem is when i go home, i resort back to old ways - drinking to much, harmful substances, getting caught up with faces from the past and being embarrassingly drunk! while this sound cringe-worthy and awful to some, i actually like it. i miss it and crave it! Madness!
But when I'm with A, I'm just me Not "settled down" or anything like that, just a moderate drinker who likes to live a little sometimes. He cant say he didn't know that about me when he met me. Only thing is... he dusnt realise how bad we get and some of the things Ive done whilst drunk! which I don't really want him to know.
So new life in Sth Sds is good, but no job yet - so no real friends yet. We going back to home in two weeks and already the girls have organised a piss up! Can't wait. Lets just see if faces from the past appear!
Right now though A and I are thinking a few things. A is in the hotels biz. He wants out so is thinking of doing a computer course, either with Computeach or NITLC. Consequently doing this course will see him having a recognised skill, once employed so the plan is to emigrate to Australia in 3 yrs or so. Also, at the mo, we only have one car, so looking at new cars, cuz i will more than likely be needing one once the job gets going. looking at the new Fiesta's ... but not sure yet.
Today is A's dads Bday so a few of the in-law family coming round tonight for buffet and drinks. makes a change i suppose. A is on nights all this wk until Sunday which is nice cuz I can spend the wk nights with him.
And tomorrow is Thursday ... Thursday means ... Darts!!! Come on Barney!
BARNEY ARMY!! BARNEY ARMY!!
Leaving my friends behind was quite hard cuz I do love em to bits, but I found that I am a completely different person when I am with them. I go back to being a wild child and "don't have a fuck" attitude. When I'm in Sth Sds I'm not like that at all, split personality is something I find hard to deal with! But I couldn't say I'm one over the other...MAN!
Problem is when i go home, i resort back to old ways - drinking to much, harmful substances, getting caught up with faces from the past and being embarrassingly drunk! while this sound cringe-worthy and awful to some, i actually like it. i miss it and crave it! Madness!
But when I'm with A, I'm just me Not "settled down" or anything like that, just a moderate drinker who likes to live a little sometimes. He cant say he didn't know that about me when he met me. Only thing is... he dusnt realise how bad we get and some of the things Ive done whilst drunk! which I don't really want him to know.
So new life in Sth Sds is good, but no job yet - so no real friends yet. We going back to home in two weeks and already the girls have organised a piss up! Can't wait. Lets just see if faces from the past appear!
Right now though A and I are thinking a few things. A is in the hotels biz. He wants out so is thinking of doing a computer course, either with Computeach or NITLC. Consequently doing this course will see him having a recognised skill, once employed so the plan is to emigrate to Australia in 3 yrs or so. Also, at the mo, we only have one car, so looking at new cars, cuz i will more than likely be needing one once the job gets going. looking at the new Fiesta's ... but not sure yet.
Today is A's dads Bday so a few of the in-law family coming round tonight for buffet and drinks. makes a change i suppose. A is on nights all this wk until Sunday which is nice cuz I can spend the wk nights with him.
And tomorrow is Thursday ... Thursday means ... Darts!!! Come on Barney!
BARNEY ARMY!! BARNEY ARMY!!
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